Mother asks - "which poly course? ERM, to prepare you know..."
Father is comforting himself. "Jas, you cannot go Uni, never mind we will support you. Poly, overseas, whatever, try your best. If not, come manage the rental business."
I thank them for their support but at the same time wonder - what made them think that way? Maybe the aura of failure just hangs around me, I don't know.
General comment: A-levels = all subjects seem so...insecure to me. So, I really don't know where I stand. After hearing some really negative comments about the chem MCQ, I decided to relook the thing when I got back. Oh well, maybe I shouldn't. I could actually spot my own mistakes. Argh.
On my mother: One has to be real careful about her and Adwin now. Her temperament seems to depend on his mood swings. The best time to approach her now is when Adwin is smiling toothlessly at all the idiots smiling back, me included. I miss the lazy Mummy sometimes. Adwin's made all of us mircaulously hardworking. All for his smile.
And today has to be the most embarrassing day of my life. Of all the times I fell, this time is the most malu - I fell at the side of the bus, in front of all the horrified commuters at the back door like the opening of some horrible comedy film - and I was just walking past the bus stop, reserved and dignified when that happened. What a major hit to my pride. Of course, I wouldn't have minded if someone actually laughed it off, or even helped me (but it is kind of impossible in the split second that the bus back door opened). But no, they just stood there mouths agape like goldfishes. Those sitting on the benches didn't help either. So much for being helpful Singaporeans. I've got to understand why I keep falling and others don't.
» Mugging through the night =( *jasmine
about me
&ANGEL
TURNED
DEVIL..^*
Jasmine
Meridian JC.
LOVES&BLEAHS.
drawing, colouring, studying, animals, sleeping noise, people waking me up, NAPFA
FOOD*_*
chicken rice, mango, baked goods..
&&i currently hate:
...actually no one
wishes
[_] means unticked,
[o] means ticked,and
[X] means it's an impossible feat.
[_]To get a good A level grade
[_]To be able to finish a comic
[o]To be able to meet my best friends again together
[_]To lose weight
